Divine Toughts

Mengapa Kepemimpinan itu Berharga?

Kemuliaan yg disertai Tanggungjawab

Mazmur 106:16-18 mengutip kisah hidup mrk yang ingin (iri) jabatan imam Harun tapi tidak siap dengan konsekuensi/tanggungjawabnya (Bilangan 16:1-35).

Jadilah celaka menimpa bani/keluarga Datan & Abiram akibat kebodohan itu.

Sebagai Imam, Harun beresiko mati jika tidak dipandang layak saat menghadap TUHAN. Ya, dibalik setiap kemuliaan ada tanggungjawab besar yang menyertainya (sisi ini kurang dipahami golongan kritikus).


Action talks louder than thought, a Leadership essence

Entah bagaimana bani Korah luput dari hukuman yg sama. Mungkin karena mereka belajar mengendalikan lidah terhadap pemimpin saat kejadian itu sehingga di masa depan kita menikmati beberapa mazmur yang dihasilkan oleh keturunannya.

# behind great power, there’s great responsibility (Spiderman the movie).

Daily Experiences, Tahukah Anda?

What Love is All About

Married or not… you should read this.

When I got home that night my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking about divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!


Someone that going trough in the hardship, deserve to sharing glory of your life on the top of the mountain

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.


True Love will never fail

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed – dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

Daily Experiences

Memberikan yang Terbaik adalah Kesukaan Hidup

Seberkas Asa yg Berkobar.

Sebenarnya Sabtu sore, sepulang dari resepsi adik di GOR Cengkareng tubuh sudah letih dan ingin berleha sejenak saat duduk bersandar di bangku depan M11. Tetapi mata ini tiba-tiba terbelalak dengan pemandangan di pinggir jalan raya. Sekitar 20 meter di depan angkot yg saya naiki, dengan diawasi seorang petugas keamanan setempat, tampak berjalan perlahan seorang bapak tua yang buta. Ia sedang menenteng beberapa bungkus kerupuk di pundaknya untuk dijajakan.

Pada kondisi jalan yang cukup ramai di seputaran kampus Binus/Kemanggisan, ternyata hanya seorang satpam muda berkulit gelap yg meresikokan diri dan pekerjaannya demi menolong pak tua yang buta itu.

Saya ingat Buku Tua bijak bersabda kalau hidup manusia itu seperti uap saja, sebentar ada lalu kemudian hilang. Namun bagi seorang tua yg telah kehilangan penglihatan (entah berapa lama ia hidup seperti itu), ia memilih untuk tidak kehilangan semangat hidup. Ia memilih tetap berjalan maju demi memberikan yang terbaik sebagai prinsip hidup.


life is always great for those who having good understanding

Pengalaman sore itupun esoknya diteguhkan oleh sebuah pesan di rumahNYA agar sy menguatkan hati percaya saya (1John 5:4), bahwa IA setia memelihara kehidupan anak-anakNYA.

Terima kasih untuk Sahabat Sejati yg membisikkan itu di telinga hati saya malam hari ini.

Pman, 2016-5-16

Divine Toughts

Waktu Kawal Jaga Malam

Berjaga-jaga adalah Mutlak  Diperlukan untuk Terus Naik

Mazmur 63:6-8 (TB)
(63-7) Apabila aku ingat kepada-Mu di tempat tidurku, merenungkan Engkau sepanjang kawal malam, —
(63-8) sungguh Engkau telah menjadi pertolonganku, dan dalam naungan sayap-Mu aku bersorak-sorai.
(63-9) Jiwaku melekat kepada-Mu, tangan kanan-Mu menopang aku.

Padang gurun Zif adalah tempat Daud bersembunyi dan mengalami ketakutan setelah kemenangan perang (1Samuel 23).
Belajar selalu waspada (tidak mudah terbawa perasaan, masalah, ataupun berkat) adalah pelajaran berharga bagi seorang raja/chief/pemimpin. Yonatan sebagai sahabat dalam visi TUHAN meneguhkan dirinya tentang panggilan ini (mazmur 63 declare/menyebutkan raja).


TUHAN menjadi teman kawal malam (saat terberat waktu jaga prajurit) & mengirim teman yang dibutuhkan untuk menggenapi/support visi.
Dalam ujian promosi di kemudian hari Daud lulus dengan membiarkan Saul hidup karena ia mengerti bahwa peninggian sejati datangnya dari TUHAN dan hanya lewat cara DIA. Karena itulah IA memperhitungkan dan meneguhkan perjanjian keturunan Mesias lewat Daud. IA sangat suka dengan orang yg setiawan!


HIS Grace is more than Enough

Men are Fragile without HIM!

Peter was made more authentic and therefore stronger after an uncomfortable chapter of life. Moses was made useful years after a mistake he ran away from. Hiding out in the wilderness, he was finally prepared. Paul seemed to never forget the depths from which he was delivered as a persecutor of Christians.

All three have this one thing in common – they were more useful after they got a revelation of their own frailty. Each thought they knew what God wanted to do – and missed it. Peter thought himself the defender of the Christ. Moses thought he was the champion of the oppressed and Paul thought he was purifying the true move of God from a dangerous deception. All acted in righteous rage and all were wrong.


Jesus, lover of human souls.. a good shepherd.

Peter and Moses ran away from their mistakes. Paul ran into divine discipline and redemption. All became stronger because of a revelation of their weakness.

Don’t disqualify yourself because of weakness, but rather remember this verse from Hebrews: “out of weakness they were made strong.”

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Daily Experiences

HE Talks (sometime) with Signs & Enigma

Temulawak plus Gula Merah..

Sambil menyeruput racikan sederhana utk speedy recovery terapi syaraf pasca stroke ini, DIA ingatkan bagaimana dahulu di tengah lembah bayang-bayang maut pada tanggal 30 Des’14 – 20 Jan’15 penyertaanNYA sempurna sampai sekarang melalui DR. Fredy Sitorus (kepala divisi stroke RSCM), dokter Sutjipto (mantan ketua IDI), ahli terapi syaraf di rusun Harum @Tebet-pakde (2 tahun buka praktek di RRC) , sahabat geng Si Berat (saudara pa sejak sma), & keluarga yg terbaik (Rom 8:28).


you'll know what is sweet after you realize what is sour & bitterness

Kalaupun masih ada sedikit rasa pahit dan pedas skrg ini (temulawak) tp kemanisan dari TUHAN (gula merah) yg akan cover semuanya demi terbitnya kemuliaan yg telah IA janjikan itu (Yes 45:2-3).

Divine Toughts

Bersiap untuk yang Terbaik dalam Keadaan yang Terburuk

Nothing to Loose (Secure in HIM)

Mazmur 57
Maz 57:7 (TB)  (57-8)
Hatiku siap, ya Allah, hatiku siap; aku mau menyanyi, aku mau bermazmur.

1 Samuel 24
Saat pengepungan oleh 3.000 orang terpilih/terlatih dilakukan Saul terhadap Daud, yg ia miliki adalah TUHAN dgn 400 org bermasalah di gua Adulam (1 Sam 21).
Akhirnya ia sadar bahwa ‘it’s nothing to loose’ sehingga lahirlah mazmur ucapan syukur ini.


Syukur, perkataan iman, dan mazmur di lembah kekelaman akan merubah atmosfer (orang-orang dan keadaan sekitar, mendatangkan inspirasi untuk future plan) bagaikan korban yg harum di hadapanNYA.

Belakangan ditemui pada akhir cerita, dengan hadirat TUHAN yang selalu Daud bawa ke manapun, kumpulan looser di gua Adulam akhirnya berubah berjalan dengan waktu (proses ilahi). Hidup mereka dipulihkan untuk kemudian menjadi triwira dan kumpulan pahlawan yang gagah perkasa. Firman dan kehadiran TUHAN di dalam kehidupan manusia pasti mengerjakan terobosan yg dasyat!

IA bertindak karena membela namaNYA dan kemuliaanNYA!